My Star

You are still shy around me
Sometimes you don't want to talk with me
You have an amazing heart
I swear I will never tear it apart
You study more than talk to me
I understand why that must be
You have secrets kept locked in your heart
That's ok, my dear; we both had different starts
Your life was much harder than me
Yet you are a better person; stronger than me
You amaze me everyday my love
Yet there are other people you love
More deeply than I
I understand my dear, I say with a sigh
For I fell for the person you are
I will always love you; whether near for far
So keep being the person you are
I love you more than life; you are my star

Why Did This Happen

I don't understand how I can feel so
How I can love you so much
How I can think of you as such
You are so amazing to me
Why is this so; how can it be
You are the sun that warms my day
The soothing voice that takes the pain away
You light my world with your smile
I long to see you; if only for awhile
You make me crazy; the amount of love
I feel for you; all the stars above
Cannot compare to your beauty to me
I want to be closer; yet it cannot be
To be the friend that you hold dear
To learn all your happiness; every tear
You cannot imagine how much you mean to me
I love you more than anything; can't you see
I love you my dear; you're in my heart
That's why missing you is tearing me apart

Miss You

I miss here so much
Seeing her brings laughter to my eyes
She's a stunning beauty yet what matters most
Is inside her heart; compassion flows
Listening to all my cries
Drying the tears in my eyes
Just to think of her brings a smile to my face
So amazing; full of grace
In the way she walks; the way she talks
Her voice is like crystals; flows across the room
Lovely in every single way
This my dear, let me say
I love you through it all
Sometimes we fight; that's not all
There's love above all; holding you to me
So just look into my eyes and you will see
You're the best; forget the rest
For you are the friend I need
Even if my words are full  of greed
I want to see you my dear
To be able to whisper in your ear
That you mean the world to me
That's just how it is; that's what it will be
So know my love, forever and for always
I will always be here for you
Until the end of my days

Silent Tears

Sitting here today
The tears run down my face
Yet I am quiet
Not making a sound; I go through the day
Nobody knows; I'm hurting so much
Inside, I'm falling to pieces
Over the struggle with the love
The love that entered my life when I met you
The feelings I have for you; not returned
It kills me everyday; yet I don't cry
Don't make a sound; I must stay hidden
I've told you how I feel; explained my love
It wouldn't be fair to keep pressing
I would never want to hurt you
To force you to break our ties
Simply cause I love you too much
So I will smile; go through the day
You will think I'm happy; nothing to fear
Yet everyday, I will be crying silent tears

Everything to Me

You are everything to me
The air I breath, eyes to see
You are the sun up above
You brighten my days with your love
You are the hand that leads me
I couldn't get through the day without thee
You are the one I most love
You are a gift from above
For I really don't deserve thee
So I am thankful He gave you to me
Always there to listen
Your eyes are like diamonds: they glisten
I would do anything for you my love
You are amazing; just your love
It's enough to bring me to tears
Losing you; my greatest fear
So know, my dear, my truest friend
I always want you here; with me until the end

Sitting Here

Sitting here day by day
Trying to think of something to say
For everything I say makes you mad
The truth of that makes me sad
I love you so much my dear
Why won't you let me near
Just let me in your heart
Cause this is tearing me apart
Unable to sleep at night
Worrying that again we will fight
Yet I am never mad at you
I don't know what to do
This is causing so much stress
I'm never getting any rest
Yet I love you to death
With each and every breath
Just the sound of your voice
Causes me to rejoice
So what am I to do
I will die if I lose you
So please my love, let me near
For everyday we fight, brings me tears

Don't Want Another Friend

Some say I need more friends
Maybe I do; for I only have you
It's not fair to pressure you this much
To always want to talk to you
To always want to be with you
It kills me when we fight
Keeps me up all night
For I love you deep in my heart
Therefore fighting tears me apart
I only want to get closer to you
To just know a little more about you
Some say I need more friends
Otherwise this friendship will end
You are getting madder everyday
Yet really, what can I say
I don't want this to come to an end
But I don't want another friend
It will only be to distract me from you
All the wonderful things we could do
If only you would let me inside
Then on wings I will glide
For you truly are an angel to me
When we talk I'm as happy as can be
So please, my dear, look at it from my end
For I only want you; not another friend

To Distance

Lately I don't know what to do
When I love you so much
Yet just to tell you is too much
You keep me at such a distance
Warn me not to get close
When you know it's too late
I love you; you're hurting me
That you don't think of me like that
I'm just another friend to you
I didn't think it'd be like this
With me hurting everyday
Every time you make another rule
I don't know if it's worth it
To be hurt by you everyday
Even through all the love I have
I don't know if I can do it
We only met a few months now
Yet I fear it'll be the same in years
Will you ever accept me as I am
Love me for who I am
Realize how much I love you
Will you ever love me back?

Waiting Here for You

Waiting here for you
To hear your lovely voice
So full of grace; beautiful
Like a million angels singing
Every moment you don't call
Tears me apart; I miss you so
You are the sun that gives me life
You are the star that guides me
My love for you doesn't stop
Like the earth is turning; it continues
Never slowing down; growing every day
For you, my love, saved me from darkness
You showed me the light; gave me your light
For you have an abundance of it
It flows all around you
Making your face light up; your eyes sparkle
More precious than a million diamonds
I will never find another like you
For you are unique; you are amazing
Even if I'm not the one for you
If you ever change your mind
I'll love you forever; for always

I Was Warned

You warned me with your eyes
You warned me with your voice
Said to let things be
We were friends; that is enough
It was who you were; private
You warned me about her
Yet I kept on pushing
Digging into her life; where I wasn't welcome
Finally came the anger; that I didn't listen
So choose you said; to accept you or not
Cause this is who you are; this is the offer
You will be there for me; you will listen to me
Yet you won't let me into your heart; ever
So choose, and stop pushing
Otherwise you'll make the choice, to leave

Different

Something’s changed in our friendship
Subtle though it may be; it’s there
A feeling, a sign; I’m not sure what
Yet you don’t act as you used to
You’re more reserved; withdrawn
We don’t talk much anymore
I’m trying to interpret your actions
Yet your words say otherwise
You say I’m a good friend
Yet when I’m really hurting
You tell me you can’t talk much
You sound different these days
Where is the girl that used to make me laugh?
The you that wanted to know how I was
You said you’ll always be there for me
Yet when I need you the most; gone
I know my love for you will not change
Yet something’s wrong with this friendship
Something’s different

Waiting for You

Every morning I look at my phone
Waiting for your message
Everyday I long to learn about you
Waiting for you to let me
Every moment I think of you
Waiting for you to call me
Everyday I ask to see you
Waiting for you to miss me
Everyday I am hurting
Waiting for you to trust me
Every night you’re in my dreams
Waiting for me to be in yours
Every night I tell you I love you
Waiting for you to love me

Impossible Dreams

For awhile I pushed; asked
To be let into your heart
To know your every emotion
For I love you; with all my heart
My best friend; the one I trust above all
Yet he came first in your life
He was the one you would turn to
When you cried, when you were happy
He was the first to know; all your thoughts
The one who got to spend time with you
You were loyal to him in every way
As well as saving yourself for him; your feelings
Only he knew all; leaving me standing here
Asking how you are; knowing you won't tell
You are my best friend; I can tell you anything
Always will you listen and comfort;
Yet he's the one you run to; your first thought
Your only thought; I love you too
Want to share your emotions; your tears
I know now that will never be
For I was dreaming impossible dreams

Jealous of Him

Tired; laying here in bed
Just want to close my eyes
Yet can't; every time I do you appear
In my thoughts; my dreams
As the clock ticks by; I think of you
How much I love you; how much it hurts
For me to accept that there's another
A person that knows everything about you
When I know not; left in the darkness
Why is he the only one; to have your trust
To share your dreams with; your pains
When I  love you so much it hurts
It's not fair to be in this much pain
To be punished like this
When my only sin was loving you to much
I may say that I can be happy with our friendship
I may smile and laugh; I'm happy for you
That you've found true love
While that may be true
Cause nothing matters more than your happiness
I am standing on the side; hurting
Longing to be let into your heart
Knowing I will never be

Tears In My Eye

I fear I'm losing you
For you can't love me
Like I do you
You tell me it will never be
I wish you'd love me!
That song came on today
The one from my loneliest days
Had to change the tune
For it brought tears to my eye
Instant and big; they threatened to fall
Had to stop thinking about you
Yet I can't; I love you so
Just want to share your life
Your refusal cuts my heart
Like a knife plunged deep; I weep
For all that could've been
For all my love for you therein
To many rules; to many laws
When love doesn't care
It doesn't follow logic; even though your laws aren't
Why can't you break them!
Just this once; for me
Losing you will hurt me bad
I don't know if I will ever let love in again
For it torments my heart; my emotions
I've never felt this bad; never been this mad
For I'm losing the one I love
All because of Him above