Always Your Friend; Always Hurt

I knew the moment I saw you
You were different; special
Your beauty was amazing
Inside and out; flowing around you
Your compassion blew me away
You came into my life; it will never be the same
For my love came pouring out; amazing how strong
I will do anything for you
You mean everything to me; our friendship
Yet at a distance I am held; you hide emotions
To share only with those you truly love
Yet my love is unconditional; even though it's hard
I want to know everything about you
I never can talk with you enough; all day and night if I could
When you told me I would always be outside your heart
When you told me there were lines not to be crossed
I was hurt; how much do I love you
I fought it; I loved you too much to be outside
Yet that was how you felt; those were your terms
What could I do but accept, when I love you so much?
So accept I did; you always make me smile when we talk
I want to know you forever; be friends
Always I will be there for you; anytime
Yet every time I think about you
A part of me will always hurt
That you couldn't let me love you like I do

Impossible Dreams

For awhile I pushed; asked
To be let into your heart
To know your every emotion
For I love you; with all my heart
My best friend; the one I trust above all
Yet he came first in your life
He was the one you would turn to
When you cried, when you were happy
He was the first to know; all your thoughts
The one who got to spend time with you
You were loyal to him in every way
As well as saving yourself for him; your feelings
Only he knew all; leaving me standing here
Asking how you are; knowing you won't tell
You are my best friend; I can tell you anything
Always will you listen and comfort;
Yet he's the one you run to; your first thought
Your only thought; I love you too
Want to share your emotions; your tears
I know now that will never be
For I was dreaming impossible dreams

Jealous of Him

Tired; laying here in bed
Just want to close my eyes
Yet can't; every time I do you appear
In my thoughts; my dreams
As the clock ticks by; I think of you
How much I love you; how much it hurts
For me to accept that there's another
A person that knows everything about you
When I know not; left in the darkness
Why is he the only one; to have your trust
To share your dreams with; your pains
When I  love you so much it hurts
It's not fair to be in this much pain
To be punished like this
When my only sin was loving you to much
I may say that I can be happy with our friendship
I may smile and laugh; I'm happy for you
That you've found true love
While that may be true
Cause nothing matters more than your happiness
I am standing on the side; hurting
Longing to be let into your heart
Knowing I will never be