So Small

I sometimes think
What am I, I’m so small
One in billions; insignificant
To think; that many people
Each one unique; special to someone
I go about my life; wrapped in a bubble
Unable to comprehend the world
All the animals; what about them
How do they see us
Do they hate us
Taking away they’re shelter
Polluting their homes
Killing millions of them
What do they do; do they have families
Jobs to go to, school?
How do we know
Is there ever going to be a day when we can listen
Communicate with all of God’s creatures?
I guess that’s life; we’ll live it
Never to fully understand it
Just be the best we can be
Just live

Done

I hate my life!
Depression with me everyday
No money!
No friends!
I’m done!
The knife is in my hand
I plunge it in my arm
Drag it slowly up
Blood’s everywhere
The air fills with copper
The pain is unbearable; it doesn’t matter
Before I can scream I slit my throat
I’m on the floor; it’s over

Drowning....Slipping Away

Drowning....slipping away
No point in anything
No joy in my life
Only stress;  eating at me
Destroying me minute by minute
Depression hits me; hard, unrelenting
Like a lead blanket it pushes me down
Squeezing my chest; taking away my air
So far down I can’t feel light
There’s no light in hell
Just want to leave; quickly, quietly
I take the pills in my hand
Such little things; so powerful
Whisky almost gone; one last pull
The pills go down smoothly; the bottle empty
Now comes the wait; it won’t be long
I sit down; writing to everyone
I’m sorry; I can’t live like this
Thank you for everything; I love you
I’m starting to drift off
Can’t keep my eyes open
The bed is warm; I wrap the blanket around me
I sleep; never to wake again

Enough

I’ve had enough!
Enough of this crappy life
Bills to pay; I can’t keep up
Drowning in debt; not willing to sacrifice
There’s no point in living poor
I’d rather not live at all
I often wonder if that’s the solution
Just be done with it; no more stress
No job; nobody to care
I just don’t see the point
Death on my mind everyday
Clouding all other thoughts
I get the gun down; look at it in my hand
So simple...just one squeeze
That’s all it takes
The metal feels cool against my skin
A great wave of relief sweeps over me
I pull the trigger; I’m done

Just One Night

I see her at the bar
The hottest girl so far
Slide up to her, sly as a cat
Maam, you look pretty in black
Can I buy you a drink
What do you think
Care for a dance
Just give me a chance
That was fun
We’re not done
Welcome to my place
You have such a pretty face
We’re in my bed
Two hours and we’re dead
She falls asleep when it’s over
Til tomorrow...when we’re both sober

S & M

The whip cracks down
Sending shivers through my naked body
She pulls the collar tighter; enhancing my pleasure
She looks so good dressed in leather
My thoughts don’t stay though
As she ties me up to the bed
In goes the needle; how I love the pain
I pull on the ropes; her touch almost to much
The whip smacks down again; WHACK
Nine strips of leather; one blow
Down she goes; her teeth relentless
Nipping, biting; biting, nipping
Almost over the edge I go again
She pulls back; teasing
I beg her; I can’t take this
My whole body’s leaping
The handcuffs holding me back
I’m so close; I feel like I going to die
Please, let me cum!
She just smiles; saying nothing
Out comes the ring
Its vibes feeling amazing!
One squeeze; I’m in heaven
I’m free; I steal the whip
It’s my turn

On Fire

My body is on fire
White hot daggers sear through me
Like a thousand burning needles
I try to scream; I can’t
So paralyzed am I with pain
Nothing can describe this
All my other senses are gone
All I can feel is agony
Lying here; people all around
Sirens wail; the fire truck arrived
Someone’s talking to me
I can’t see; am I blind?
.....I’m in the ambulance
Hooked up to all kinds of stuff
The paramedics over me; working furiously
You’re gonna be fine!.....
My eyes flutter open, pain instantly seizes my body
Everything’s fuzzy; is this heaven?
My wife is beside me; crying
The doctor’s above me; saying I’m lucky
For two weeks I’ve been here
I’ll make a full recovery; so lucky
I look at my wife; tell her I love her
Thank God for saving me

My Angel

He sits there; a beautiful angle
The sun shines down on him
His face is perfect; sculpted in heaven
Made by God himself
Not a flaw in sight; majestic
When he walks he glides
Moving with such grace
When he smiles; he lights the world
Everyone looking at him is affected
He comes to me; I am speechless
He chose me; I’m nothing special
Yet I love him with all my being
He still takes my breath away,
Everyday

No Time

I’m running out of time
My days on earth coming to a end
Death is creeping upon me
Getting closer every day; I can feel it
Trying to make amends with those I’ve hurt
All is forgiven; it doesn’t matter
Thinking of all the little things
Things that broke friendships
People I’ve lost; people I’ve found
Those I love are around me
I tell them I love them every day
Tomorrow might be my last
As I lay here I think
I’ve had a good life; I’m grateful
If my time is up; I accept that
I tell them I love them; one last time

She Is My Life

The wind swept through her hair
The day warm and bright
Casting a radiant glow on her face
Her smile large and sweet
Grabs at my heart with its power
I look at her, admire her beauty
Remember the day she first stole my heart
All these years later I still feel lucky
To have a women like this
It humbles me; I'm grateful
Look down at her; tell her I love her
That I will love her forever
She is a essential part of me
She is my life

The Accident

My life flashes before me
Lying on the road
My bike flown out of the way
Brushed aside like a fly
My bike no match for the car
People all around me; are u alright?
Lying there in pain; blood everywhere
Strapped down; the ambulance screaming
Just lying there; I have no one to call
No one to be by my bedside
Oh why didn’t my life end!
It would’ve been so simple
No more lonely days
No more tears
Finally everything would be over

After The Rain

The rain comes down, relentless
Days and days, only clouds
Soaking everything; damp
When it clears, I’m stunned
Only amazing beauty is left
The sunlight reflects off the water
Making everything around sparkle
The plants have hidden from the rain
Now they emerge, refreshed after a long drink
Their colors even more marvellous then before
I stand here and let the smells come
The whole forest alive
Birds sing; such harmony
Rain is life; rejuvenation for the forest
It comes down hard; angry
Leaving beauty and bliss in its wake
Rain is life for all

If Only People Knew

So tired, so very tired
It’s all so hard, to pretend
To look at, I’m happy
At work, people like me; I’m popular
I may smile and joke; it’s a mask
I hide behind it every day
If only they knew, last night I cut myself
What would people think; what would they say
To know there’s one among them; considering death
It would seem so unreal; they wouldn’t believe it first
Not someone like me, who’s always laughing, joking
I feel numb, not sadness, not depressed, nothing
Going through every day, empty, invalid
Life without emotions is not life; it’s nothing
There’s no reason to live anymore
I want to leave; tonight is my last train