Damn Love

The circumstances make me so mad

That I should love you

That you should push me away

The lack of trust is hurtful

When you are my world

I am on the sidelines of yours

Looking in, wishing you trusted me

Like you trust him; like you love him

He's the focus of my envy; my jealousy

That he receives your love while I don't

It consumes me; like a raging fire 

Sucking out the air; the life inside me

Not able to see past it; I sit here in desolation

Wishing for your love, I will never receive

Longing for your heart, I will never get

First On the Dance Floor

Who wants to be first on the dance floor
I see it's empty when I walk through the door
Waiting for the party to get jumping
Someone start dancing; do something
Dancing now with all my might
Don't know how; what a sight
Just on the floor doing my thing
Don't dress up; wear no bling
Bopping my head to the tune
Not a free seat in the room
Come dance everyone
Let's have some fun
Just relax and let our worries go
Drink lots, dance fast, let go
It's getting crazy; no one now allowed in the door
Just shaking to the tune; out on the floor

My Star

You are still shy around me
Sometimes you don't want to talk with me
You have an amazing heart
I swear I will never tear it apart
You study more than talk to me
I understand why that must be
You have secrets kept locked in your heart
That's ok, my dear; we both had different starts
Your life was much harder than me
Yet you are a better person; stronger than me
You amaze me everyday my love
Yet there are other people you love
More deeply than I
I understand my dear, I say with a sigh
For I fell for the person you are
I will always love you; whether near for far
So keep being the person you are
I love you more than life; you are my star

Why Did This Happen

I don't understand how I can feel so
How I can love you so much
How I can think of you as such
You are so amazing to me
Why is this so; how can it be
You are the sun that warms my day
The soothing voice that takes the pain away
You light my world with your smile
I long to see you; if only for awhile
You make me crazy; the amount of love
I feel for you; all the stars above
Cannot compare to your beauty to me
I want to be closer; yet it cannot be
To be the friend that you hold dear
To learn all your happiness; every tear
You cannot imagine how much you mean to me
I love you more than anything; can't you see
I love you my dear; you're in my heart
That's why missing you is tearing me apart

Miss You

I miss here so much
Seeing her brings laughter to my eyes
She's a stunning beauty yet what matters most
Is inside her heart; compassion flows
Listening to all my cries
Drying the tears in my eyes
Just to think of her brings a smile to my face
So amazing; full of grace
In the way she walks; the way she talks
Her voice is like crystals; flows across the room
Lovely in every single way
This my dear, let me say
I love you through it all
Sometimes we fight; that's not all
There's love above all; holding you to me
So just look into my eyes and you will see
You're the best; forget the rest
For you are the friend I need
Even if my words are full  of greed
I want to see you my dear
To be able to whisper in your ear
That you mean the world to me
That's just how it is; that's what it will be
So know my love, forever and for always
I will always be here for you
Until the end of my days

Bad Luck

I have bad luck, or so it seems
What had happened I never would've dreamed
Ordeal after ordeal, I can't get any rest
I don't know what to do; what is best
I'm sick of dealing with all this stress
It's causing troubles in my chest
Sleeping is a thing of the past
All this bad luck; I pray it doesn't last
I just feel like moving away
Will that help; I really can't say
I go to a better place every night in my dream
I don't understand all this chaos; what does it mean
Why are all these things happening to me
What is wrong with my life; what is wrong with me?

Silent Tears

Sitting here today
The tears run down my face
Yet I am quiet
Not making a sound; I go through the day
Nobody knows; I'm hurting so much
Inside, I'm falling to pieces
Over the struggle with the love
The love that entered my life when I met you
The feelings I have for you; not returned
It kills me everyday; yet I don't cry
Don't make a sound; I must stay hidden
I've told you how I feel; explained my love
It wouldn't be fair to keep pressing
I would never want to hurt you
To force you to break our ties
Simply cause I love you too much
So I will smile; go through the day
You will think I'm happy; nothing to fear
Yet everyday, I will be crying silent tears

Learning About Me

I learnt about myself today
I need to talk to you; to say
I love you with all my heart
I can't bear when we're apart
For you always make me smile
Just to talk to you for awhile
Is my favorite thing in the day
As I sit here and pray
Thank the Lord for your love
To God in the skies above
You truly know all; everything
So hear my words that I bring
Thank you for giving her to me
Before her it was dark; I couldn't see
You have in your wisdom shown me the light
So I sleep soundly; knowing it's alright
I am following the right path
I'm calculating; doing the math
I know what to do; have no fears
Cause you will be with me; giving me your ears
Listening to what I have to say
You have truly shown me the right way

Everything to Me

You are everything to me
The air I breath, eyes to see
You are the sun up above
You brighten my days with your love
You are the hand that leads me
I couldn't get through the day without thee
You are the one I most love
You are a gift from above
For I really don't deserve thee
So I am thankful He gave you to me
Always there to listen
Your eyes are like diamonds: they glisten
I would do anything for you my love
You are amazing; just your love
It's enough to bring me to tears
Losing you; my greatest fear
So know, my dear, my truest friend
I always want you here; with me until the end

Sitting Here

Sitting here day by day
Trying to think of something to say
For everything I say makes you mad
The truth of that makes me sad
I love you so much my dear
Why won't you let me near
Just let me in your heart
Cause this is tearing me apart
Unable to sleep at night
Worrying that again we will fight
Yet I am never mad at you
I don't know what to do
This is causing so much stress
I'm never getting any rest
Yet I love you to death
With each and every breath
Just the sound of your voice
Causes me to rejoice
So what am I to do
I will die if I lose you
So please my love, let me near
For everyday we fight, brings me tears

Don't Want Another Friend

Some say I need more friends
Maybe I do; for I only have you
It's not fair to pressure you this much
To always want to talk to you
To always want to be with you
It kills me when we fight
Keeps me up all night
For I love you deep in my heart
Therefore fighting tears me apart
I only want to get closer to you
To just know a little more about you
Some say I need more friends
Otherwise this friendship will end
You are getting madder everyday
Yet really, what can I say
I don't want this to come to an end
But I don't want another friend
It will only be to distract me from you
All the wonderful things we could do
If only you would let me inside
Then on wings I will glide
For you truly are an angel to me
When we talk I'm as happy as can be
So please, my dear, look at it from my end
For I only want you; not another friend

Someone for Me

Why cam't I find someone for me
A person to talk to; night and day
Someone to share; one to care
To sit with; to talk
To meet for coffee; to go for walks
Just another like me
One that likes talking and who can see
That when I love someone I want them near me
Just to talk throughout the day
Just to be here; to be close to me
To not keep things from me
Hopefully there will come a day
When I finally find someone
A person like thee; someone for me

To Distance

Lately I don't know what to do
When I love you so much
Yet just to tell you is too much
You keep me at such a distance
Warn me not to get close
When you know it's too late
I love you; you're hurting me
That you don't think of me like that
I'm just another friend to you
I didn't think it'd be like this
With me hurting everyday
Every time you make another rule
I don't know if it's worth it
To be hurt by you everyday
Even through all the love I have
I don't know if I can do it
We only met a few months now
Yet I fear it'll be the same in years
Will you ever accept me as I am
Love me for who I am
Realize how much I love you
Will you ever love me back?

Waiting Here for You

Waiting here for you
To hear your lovely voice
So full of grace; beautiful
Like a million angels singing
Every moment you don't call
Tears me apart; I miss you so
You are the sun that gives me life
You are the star that guides me
My love for you doesn't stop
Like the earth is turning; it continues
Never slowing down; growing every day
For you, my love, saved me from darkness
You showed me the light; gave me your light
For you have an abundance of it
It flows all around you
Making your face light up; your eyes sparkle
More precious than a million diamonds
I will never find another like you
For you are unique; you are amazing
Even if I'm not the one for you
If you ever change your mind
I'll love you forever; for always

I Was Warned

You warned me with your eyes
You warned me with your voice
Said to let things be
We were friends; that is enough
It was who you were; private
You warned me about her
Yet I kept on pushing
Digging into her life; where I wasn't welcome
Finally came the anger; that I didn't listen
So choose you said; to accept you or not
Cause this is who you are; this is the offer
You will be there for me; you will listen to me
Yet you won't let me into your heart; ever
So choose, and stop pushing
Otherwise you'll make the choice, to leave

My Life's A Mess

My life is crazy; that is true
Even though it's wrong, I still love you
You brighten my day
Take my stress away
In the middle of all this commotion
You bring forth my strongest emotion
My love for you grows
Renewed each day as my blood flows
Inside my heart, my dispute is strong
For to want so much of you is wrong
You like me as a casual friend
Want my love for you to end
For you don't think of me that way
I'm just another friend at the end of the day
I'm not the best thing in your eyes
The thoughts in my head are full of why's
Why can't we be closer
Why can't I be first in your roaster
Why can't you want to see me
Why can't you have the same love for me
Lately my life's been a messy one
You brighten my day; you are my sun
I miss you more and more everyday
I dream of the day you will say
You love me and miss me,
Each and everyday, as I miss thee

On The Bathroom Floor

I find myself sitting here again today
Thinking of you, every word you say
Trying to analyze your feelings for me
Will we get closer, will it ever be
I miss you like no one before
Lying here on the cold bathroom floor
Trying to stop all my crying
When you ask me how I am, I'm lying
Saying that I'm alright
For I don't want to fight
I love you way more, more than you love me
You've told me before, you said let it be
Yet I truly can't do that with the way I feel
I feel like I'm spinning around, one big wheel
Going so fast, yet getting nowhere
My love for you holds me off the ground, just by a hair
I hope one day that you will see
And love me, like I love thee