Why Me Lord?

Oh why me lord!
What have I done to feel your wrath
I’m just another guy; trying to get by
Yet you make it so hard
You give me love; yet keep me distanced
You give me friends; yet forbid me to see them
You give me a longing to be loved
Yet I can’t have friendships
Why me lord? What have I ever done?
They say you are forgiving; merciful
Yet why must you test me so
I know, my lord, you know all
That you own heaven and earth
And all between; yet how can I live
When I only have you in me?
I feel blessed by you; yet need more
Need people to love; need her to love
She’s my everything; my love
The one I will do anything for
Yet you distance her from me
Why lord! Why torment me so?
When all I ask for; all I want
Is her, here with me

Different

Something’s changed in our friendship
Subtle though it may be; it’s there
A feeling, a sign; I’m not sure what
Yet you don’t act as you used to
You’re more reserved; withdrawn
We don’t talk much anymore
I’m trying to interpret your actions
Yet your words say otherwise
You say I’m a good friend
Yet when I’m really hurting
You tell me you can’t talk much
You sound different these days
Where is the girl that used to make me laugh?
The you that wanted to know how I was
You said you’ll always be there for me
Yet when I need you the most; gone
I know my love for you will not change
Yet something’s wrong with this friendship
Something’s different

When They Don't Love You

What to do when the one you love
Doesn’t feel the same
When it’s just casual
Yet you want something more
You smile and say you’re alright
When really you’re breaking down
Yet you keep the smile on your face; in your voice
For them; cause you don’t want to admit
How much you’re hurting; everyday
You hide the tears you cry for them; for you
When you miss them it’s a physical pain
Like someone pulling your heart out
Take a deep breath and try not to cry
Think about walking away from it all
Knowing your love will never let you
Even if it hurts; you stay rooted
Cause the love you feel is incredible
So strong; so powerful
You can’t even get mad; this is their choice
And you want their happiness more than anything
Even if it tears you apart, everyday

Waiting for You

Every morning I look at my phone
Waiting for your message
Everyday I long to learn about you
Waiting for you to let me
Every moment I think of you
Waiting for you to call me
Everyday I ask to see you
Waiting for you to miss me
Everyday I am hurting
Waiting for you to trust me
Every night you’re in my dreams
Waiting for me to be in yours
Every night I tell you I love you
Waiting for you to love me